today we leave for europe. for those of you who for some unfortunate reason stumble on this little corner of the huge world of cyberspace, I will try to keep this space updated as freqently as possilble on the weird and or otherwise interesting happenings of our little tiny journey. cheers. 6457585daniel millerFriday, October 19, 2001publishTonight I consumed. I ate my friends food, I drank their wine, I smoked their cigs, I drank their coffee. And left without even so much of a thank you. So thanks. I mean that. Really. It looks like I might actually accomplish things that had to be done before I left before I leave. I'm not so stressed. Maybe it was the consuming. Maybe it's blind faith. Maybe I'm just not going to fall for the world's tricks anymore. Everything's going to work out. We're not going to die from poverty. Ha that's laughable in this country. We scoff that things here might become as dangerous as they have been in the rest of the world for a very long time. We scoff because death has come into our lives just as vividly as it used to be 50, 100 yrs ago, or is in the aformentioned rest of the world. Everybody asks what I think about this new war with bin laden. I still think the same as I did the day after it all happened, when the emotions were still running like fluid, when the gigantic hole in the collective conscious of this hemisphere was still sucking our spirits out. That is, there is no meaning. There is no such thing as meta meaning. God is not meta meaning. God does not creat meta meaning. We do not create meta meaning for or of God. There are little scraps of sanity that we can keep in our cupboards of life. Cheers and I'll see you on the other side of the pond. 6449836daniel millerThursday, October 18, 2001publishok i'm not going to be discouraged i'm not going to be discouraged 6408246daniel millerWednesday, October 17, 2001publish<a href="http://www.bornmagazine.org/mother.html">Born Magazine: Design and Literature Collaboration</a> 6407788daniel millerpublishWhy are christians pricks? Just wondering. I realized the problem with being an artist. You are selling yourself, and selling requires the absorbtion of a lot of rejection. I don't even think it matters that the work is close to my heart or my creation or anything. I would hate selling if I was selling vacuum hoses. I can't stand the rejection. One "no" a day and I'm wiped out emotionally. Here's the timeline. Last night Thursday the date and time for Hate Mail was set. Friday was a wash day in creating graphics and press release wordings. The weekends are always a wash. Monday for me was a bad day for other reasons, and unfortunately in my experience those bad unproductive days don't always fall on the weekend. I hate that. At any rate, chaulk that one up to not being perfectly tough or whatever. So yesterday was my first real day to find some supporters. I'm not asking for much at all, really. One computer and some flyers. Actually I called people about computers on Friday and there were some positive people, although they didn't have any hardware laying about. At any rate. Maybe it's been the in-person approach. I'll stick to phone sales. But anyway, I just realized that an artist is really just a salesperson. And that sucks. Cus I'm no saleman. On other notes. Oh wait this is all I'm doing. 6406629daniel millerpublishlife sucks sometimes too. who can be an artist? people living off a trust? really excited still about dada showing. got some pictures done today. getting graphics done tomorrow. leaving town friday so no pressure or anything. just realized that i will probly lose money on this show. but oh well. wouldn't be a big deal if i had money coming in from somewhere (jerk offs at the old company probly haven't even sent my check yet for that last gig...even though it's been the month). just that this thing has taken 40 hr weeks for a few weeks now and i am only going to lose money on it. so people who laughed or didn't get our support thingie, well, figure it the f**k out! ok that enough. thanks for letting me go off. not that you're reading this or anything. i love you. ha ha. ok that's enough. cheers. 6389840daniel millerTuesday, October 16, 2001publishhey everyone it's been awhile since i blogged. i'm really stoked with life and coffee right now so excuse the exclamations. not that anyone is reading this anyway. this is for me. and you if you're reading. i am really trying to be profound or at least give you a glimpse (sp?) into a journey. last night i auditioned to play drums in a band that is right up my alley. very groove oriented. fusioneske. reggee beats. plays out already at good clubs. my age. mature people. want to succeed. want to make it. can make it. talented. needless to say i fit right in. hee hee. anyway i'm buzzing from the opportunity. i'm missing the chance to play a very big gig with them because of the europe trip, but that came along well before this. i just met them thursday night when i was at dada's arranging the hate mail installation there for november 15-17(!!!!!!!!!). they were playing there that night. actually my first gig with them, if all goes well, will be the 15th! so i'll have my premier showing there at dada's, and also the same night my premier with this band! the band is called yoko theory. no web presence yet but i will have to remedy that when the time comes. still working on my own project, too. slow going as always. playing out a bit more as well as checking out the growing scene down here. i remember three years ago you couldn't beg a gig or an open mic out of any establishment. well it seems the people have revolted because there is tons of great acts and great venues now. saw three acts last week at three great venues and seeing another this afternoon. playing an open mic almost every tuesday in west palm. it's great. i hope this drumming gig works out because i really believe in it. the starts seem to be aligned in its favor. it looks like the sale of the house will be final this week. we also hopefully got a good credit check and will have an apartment set for when we move out of here. we're moving to hypoluxo, on the intracostal, a 5 min bike ride to the beach. it's a great little community and we're very excited. Miriam started the downsizing/simplification process this weekend and we have a great room full of stuff we're selling/getting rid of. friends have started to come by to pick stuff up. after we get back from europe we will do a proper garage sale. but damn it feels good to shed. excuse the typos but i have no time! ciao. i love you all. 6329879daniel millerSunday, October 14, 2001publish